A quick entry

by skyrien

I had this song up once before, a couple years ago. Somehow, the words even in their badly translated state hold more meaning now than ever before. A tribute to Forward Motion yes?

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It’s true, isn’t it? It seems as though
we’re headed for a new century. It’s miraculous.
But this is something you can only taste once.
Let’s remember one more time.

On the day we arrived on this Earth
we were somehow happy,
and somehow it hurt.
We were crying
wow yeah wow yeah wow wow yeah

Reality is a traitor; it’s easy
to misjudge things. So with your own two eyes
please decide the worth of this place.
Do it with your own standards.

We’ve arrived in these times.
But somehow things move on
So now we’re standing here
and we’re living through today .
wow yeah wow yeah wow yeah

We’ve arrived on this kind of world.
Somehow I’m very happy
somehow it hurts a lot.
While crying at the top of my lungs :
wow yeah wow yeah wow yeah

I arrived in these times.
But I met you.

I arrived in this kind of world.
So I was able to meet you.

On the day we arrived on this Earth
we were somehow happy,
and somehow it hurt.
We were crying
wow yeah wow yeah wow wow yeah

We’ve arrived in these times.
But somehow things move on
So somehow we’re standing here
and we’re living through today.
 wow yeah wow yeah wow yeah

-Ayumi Hamasaki – Evolution

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It’s frightening how coinkedinks and random chance and moments can bring people together. Yet so much of our lives is defined that way. And I can only call the outcome fate. And that is amazing.

Just three words

by skyrien

I’m sighing right now. A huge huge sigh, like you would when you’ve written a thousand words of the three thousand you intended to write, before realizing you only need three. Like when you were fighting so hard for the sake of your world, and then you realize that your world is actually in good hands (or for those who don’t believe; that the world is actually quite good at taking care of itself ). It’s almost a sigh of disappointment… but that wouldn’t be very becoming of me. It’s really an awakening accompanied by hope, and realization that I still have a
lot to learn.

Just ten minutes ago, I was boiling with a desire to say so much, writing entries that will never be read and a letter that will likely never be received, and now, with the moments having passed, they seem almost meaningless; and now a giant ‘So what now?’ is what’s left. I’ve always tried to record all the moments throughout the day as if they’d be lost if I didn’t, but I think I can let some feelings slide, moments pass, and when I’m ready, to just reflect a bit in order to move forward.

Forward. “Forward” never seems quite the same in reflection as it does in those moments. But, it’s the best version of it there is.

…(2 hours later)

I’ve been so moody lately!!! Argggrggggg!! Yarggh!!! Blahh!!! Hear me ROAR!!!

You know what? There’s all the time in the world to reflect, and I WILL later. But for now, my precious weekend is flying by, and I think I’ll ride the slipstream~I think I’m gonna go out and live a little on this one and only July 4th, 2005….

Feeling: Liberated!

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Here’s an amusing photo that Mr. Kirk took from last week (at the Wired Expo)

And despite the title, at this point of the day, neither of us were *brooding*

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Happy 229th!

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Liberation!

by xela

Okay, rapid fire thoughts again. Three sections with drastically different thoughts over the course of 6 hours…

At Nick’s house:

After Squishy:

Post Girl Next Door…:

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Actually… nah~screw all the above. There’s too much going on, always to keep a record of the moments in life. I’m thinking back at the past four months–the end of one era, and the entirety of another (as the power of women seem to define our lives, no?), and it’s been so very much, I’ve gained an amazing Squishy friend (who is and shall likely continue to be a voice of wisdom), gone through my first official relationship, and from it all, received a strong push into a more balanced existence.

Where am I now? Like they say in quantum physics, you cannot possibly know the position and velocity of a quantum particle with accuracy, just one or the other. I think I know where I am, and I’ve accepted the facts and have been greeted with liberation, the question really should be “where am i going?”. That, my fellow reflectees, I cannot answer. But, if my life’s history has told me anything, it’ll be good if I let it be.

I read through a HUGE amount of my own entries (first time in a few months), and I was almost surprised at the changes I’ve gone through. It’s like I’d forgotten who I was… but like the quote goes… it’s okay to lose yourself, as long as you can get yourself back.

One day, I will lose my self in the moments… the right moment. At the right time. 🙂

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KsQ