19-Oct-2005

by skyrien

I totally need a new Xanga entry.

Currently, I am reading a Stress Management For Dummies book and procrastinating on studying for my next four exams.  I can take the liberty of procrastination because I raped my Math 385 exam today.  I feel I am becoming ever-the-more screwed when it comes to academics, but fear not!  Xander will pull through.

So.

How is my life, you ask?

Well I’m glad you did.

My life is going swell, other than the threat of perceived school screwage in the aforementioned paragraph.  I would like to write some typical entry about how life is about living and etc etc etc, but you know that already.  And you know what – I am living.  I am studying when I should be sleeping and sleeping when I should be socializing (but how else are we supposed to live vicariously through dreams, hmm?).  I am buying strawberry sorbets at Late Nite (heaven!) and delicious peanut butter shakes at Moonstruck (expensive!).  I am caring little about Soxtober and being forced to watch Sex and the City (good) and Desperate Housewives (better).  I am setting up gorgeous lights outside my dorm room
which will be taken down in a month after building inspectors deem it a fire hazard; I am searching for apartments with three of my best high school friends.  Yes indeed, life is being lived.  And therefore, it is good.

I’m sure you’d like a deep and indepth entry reflective of my chapters from last year, but you know what – here’s an idea.  Use your imagination.  Or, better yet, focus on your own life.  And on living it.  Because precious hours are being wasted on this terrible thing we call Xanga.

So off with you now!

(But leave a comment first, you eprop-filcher)

 

7-Oct-2005

by skyrien

I like this quote. A lot:

“You only live once, but if you do it right, once is enough” -Joe Lewis

More Quizilla!

Samurai
You are a Samurai.
You are full of honour and value respect. You
are not really the stereotypical hero, but you
do fight for good. Just in your own way. For
you, it is most certainly okay to kill an evil
person, if it is for justice and peace. You
also don’t belive in mourning all the time and
think that once you’ve hit a bad stage in life
you just have to get up again. It’s pointless
to concentrate on emotional pain and better to
just get on with everything. You also are a
down to earth type of person and think before
you act. Impulsive people may annoy you
somewhat.

Main weapon: Sword
Quote: “Always do the right thing.
This will gratify some people and astonish the
rest” -Mark Twain
Facial expression: Small smile

What Type of Killer Are You? [cool pictures]
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Unjustified retaliation

by skyrien

So how bad is it to get exactly what we deserve? The mistakes we make, intentionally, or misintentionally, can harm and hurt others so much. I’ve made my share of mistakes that were unforgivable. Everyone does. The unfairness of the world demands that someone gets a bad piece of pie. Just as no one is without sin, no one is without his or her fair share of harms against those around them, be they strangers, or close friends. Even best of friends disappoint, and you inevitably *will* make mistakes too.

If everyone got what they deserved, there wouldn’t be much humanity left in this world. So how do we live on, without the crushing burden of hurts received and given weighing us to the ground? We can detach ourselves from disappointment, never expect any more from a friend than we would a stranger. We may be alone, but at least then, we would never be hurt. And maybe, just maybe, someone would pull through all those layers of defense, and prove to you that maybe… it’s not that bad after all.

Or, we can forgive. We can forgive each other of the offenses that are not deserving of forgiveness, and perhaps we too can be forgiven for the harms we deal. I’m not talking about the grace of God, but I mean as individuals. As friends. As people who are capable of giving love. Holding grudges never helped anyone… and as I’ve just confirmed again… to hurt someone so close to me… its worse than being alone. I hate it. I hate it and I’d rather be hurt than to give it.

So… I’m sorry. No one deserves not to be treated with love and care.

Hate may get more done, but Love is stronger. Love is not (shouldn’t be) selfish… and love never fails.