It’s late so I’m not gonna write much more, even though my past record suggests that if I don’t deliberate this now, I never will. So here’s the dealizite:

I felt so sure as of last night, between what fascinates me and what satisfies me, and I now have absolutely no coherent idea of what I want to do anymore. It’s just like that. That’s not to say that  i don’t have any ideas–contrary, I have a LOt of things I want to do. But to dedicate my life-career to, that future remains behinds the clouds. Maybe if I write it all down, it’ll start to make more sense…

Cognitive science.
Artificial Intelligence
Neuroscience.
Material Science and Engineering / with an emphasis on biomaterials and polymers
Bioengineering
Some other sort of engineering…
Oh and of course, English.

I think it’s kind of funny that I’m going back to engineering. In spite of liking physics, biology, (though not math) for some reason, I deliberately strayed awat from engineering. Nanotech was always fascinating, and biotech/bioengineering… so much stuff. Somehow I think it might be that it was TOO enticing… that I just wanted to break away and do my own thing… which turned out to be English. Neither being really bad, or really good at it, I could take it and float along… of course… I never intended to “float along” at all. Now, after a full semester of contemplation and exploration, that future seems more and more like… a misuse of precious time.

As for engineering… that is a little bigger of a realization. I’ve learned over the past few–[expand later]

Cognitive Neuroscience. It has a nice ring to it. Even Kaidi says it sounds smart. Lol, of course it *sounds* smart it’s all about brains. It’s cool stuff. Really–who wouldn’t be fascinated at understanding the Mind?

But acade—actualyl ya know what–I’m gonna give this a break. Yeah. Listening to Vienna Teng, I have lost all motivation to continue writing for the time being. But let’s just say that what I thought was my future has now gone the way of “web-dropped course”.

On a more lovelier note, check out this awesome site!
http://artpad.art.com/?ialr24z49fc (by kaidi)

I just visited North today, and what you are about to see here is a disgrace to all once called Seniors of Naperville North:

The Class competition standings at NNHS–last year, it was almost the opposite, with seniors leading by *far*…

It may be true that seniors slack off more than any other class, but only cuz we put our time into spirit! Losing to the freshmen, and worse, being the _least_  spirited… it was almost painful to see. Sigh… what happened to the good old days when seniors ruled with a loud brash fist?

Besides that… yes, I am in violation of my Off-Xanga statement–(let’s pretend this entry {what entry???}never existed), but there are photos to share!

It would seem that my new Hat is getting a lot of action lately, and in spite of its humorous, and possibly offensive message, it is worn by
people of all… uh… (i was gonna say colors, but thats not quite true)… mleh, by ALL kinds of people! Observe:

What have we here? *gastp* Linda??? Really?

Whoa… who’s this dude?

And yes…

Even cute inanimate objects date crack whores…

And even smart all-things-fruity loving sophomores!

And even smart Northwestern biomedical engineering majors–

And, other random northwestern girls in premed! If a soon-to-be doctor’s wearing it, then it must be ok!

And of course…

The King of them all…

The ubiquity of crackwhore dating people…