Almost there

by skyrien

Going through what was and still is one of the most stressful weeks of my educational life. I’m amazed that the spacing of the work I have is so that nothing can kill me outright; paper after exam after project after other paper after exam everything is perfectly spaced to push me to the

absolute limits of stress and yet survive this crucible. I brought this all onto myself yes, by not starting week/monthlong projects until the two nights before they’re due. You pay for your procrastination big time in college. But now it’s almost over~!

I don’t even want to think about how amazing break is gonna be the last thing I want is to let my mind wander to a reward I don’t deserve quite yet; not till everything here is done. Let’s see what I’ve been doing:

12/07 – Psych 211 Final Exam

12/09 – CS final project due

12/10 – English paper due

12/13 – Psych 210 Final exam
CS 125 Final exam

12/14 – Psych 211 Research lab due (10-15 pages! Started at 10PM Monday night!)

12/15 – CS 196 honors project finished!

12/16 – Psych 210 honors project finished!

12/17 – Asian American Literature due (6-10 pagesâ€¦ havenâ€™t started yet)

12/18 – English finalâ€¦(not studied at all yetâ€¦)

It’s a mind numbing process; I can barely think with everything floating through my head. I think I’m losing weight too… and any physical ability i have have gained since coming here. How sad… the things I need to do to survive.

Xander’s College… blah. Chapter 9.

Momentous nothing?

And so it begins, the first day of finals in college. It’s like the beginning of the end in way, even though it’s only half way though the year…

What am I saying?! We’re already half-way through the first year of college?! That’s crazy… but I guess time really has passed while here. I guess it’s kind of harder to gauge the passing of time when so far away from home. At least at home there’re more people, back in high school I could almost see the freshmen growing a little as the year passed. Seniors in high school had so many… milestones. That amazing year passed like a breeze too, but at least there was scenery as we moved through. In high school, there was (visible) progress. Dances, classes, Science Bowl practices, lol — Science Olympiad building (even though 90% of it occurred the last night before), let’s see what else? Debate team, Scholastic Bowl, dreaded college apps, various high school drama, facing evil teachers day after day, lunch (where do you wanna go out today?!), sooo much stuff.

Here… well, there’s a lot of stuff to, but I’ve been a lot more mellow, I guess. Last year, I think I went through some of the most exciting, most depressing, and most rewarding, times of my life. Things happened, and things changed. There were holes here and there, but it all felt like a journey. Haha or an adventure. Senior year was an adventure, a journey with purpose at the right places. So far, college has been a downhill slide pulled by gravity, and now I’m at some big boring bland basin… going… …into finals week.

And like I said, so it begins, day 1, waking up in 5:30 hours to face my first final of college. I suppose it is a momentous occasion. Mleh. Feels just like yesterday.

X.S

P.S. Hopefully this is just SAD or some other stupid thing. Sometimes we don’t know the adventure we’re on. On a more entertaining note, just installed Windows XP Media Center Edition 2005, and look what it comes with!

Dancers! That dance to the music!

Well, sort of. They sorta appear and disappear if music turns on. Funky stuff!

I like this dude with the glow sticks

Even though the Asian girl’s hot too…

okay nitenite–waking up in 5.25 hours! Hopefully~

December 10, 2004

String theThingy

by skyrien

I spent the past two weeks trying to come up with a reason to be happy worth topping the old one (from the last entry), but… I think the fact that I’m still alive is good enough to celebrate. I don’t think I ever had so much stuff coming at once: exams, papers, research projets, finals… blah–things are getting insane.

And once again Procrastination has returned! For example, I had an English paper due today, we were given two weeks… planned to start at 7 PM the night before, but every time I sat down to do work, something came along to distract me. Ended up starting at 2 A.M.–the day it was due!! And somehow, with only 90 minutes of sleep, I actually feel fine right now. Sleep is weird like that.

And why is it that in these times of critical concentration that distractions are most…er… enslaving? While sleepyshih has fell victim to his own enslavement, I have fallen back to mine… none other than my baby~

<b>Hyundai Tiburon 2004</b>

Need for Speed Underground 2 — seriously, it is an evil game, more addicting than Coca Cola, more useless than… eh, its pretty useless
as it is. But fun nonetheless… and terrible for those needing to do work.

public String objectOfWonder(String theThingy)
{
String theThingy = new String(“Why is it that I always sound so happy online/on Xanga?”);
return theThingy;
}

November 29, 2004

Xander’s College Life Chapter 8

by skyrien

Returning from Break—Re-inspired as usual!

AH hah! Just got back from the most amazing break ever! So much fun being home, seeing friends, and sooo many close friends. Newell’s organized party was awesome (except I got gypped of my $10). It was a long time since I’ve been in a room with so many people that all knew each other. After college, high school seems like family, more hugs and cheers than ever since graduation!

With regards to the various parties afterwards—from nostalgic, to hilarious, to relaxing, to thanksgiving and worship—each fulfilled some need, and everywhere, I felt reconnected with those I’d been away from for so long. All my thanks to everyone at school, Fellowship, Capt. Kirk’s place, CCMC bros and sisses, and of course all other people that I’d call family.

And yeah… I didn’t get to see, engage in conversation with, share a reflecting moment with all the people I wanted to, but… I suppose that’s just life. Everyone seemed to be doing well, those depressed were happier, and those stressed with college apps—lol—my experience says it all turns out okay in the end, reject or acceptance—still… I wish I could somehow keep all those relationships strong, and alive, and moving…

I went through some of my hardest times in high school, yet the entire experience is one that I am always going to be thankful for. And I’m thankful that I was never alone through it all…

Speaking of high school, I managed to get a picture of Jeremy Lee OFF GUARD!!! Where he’s actually showing his gut wrenching face… yet, when I copied the defiling picture to my brother’s computer, its hard drive promptly crashed, and proceeded to decay further and further. By the end of the day, the entire computer was down, and a clean install of Windows XP needed… and YET—it STILL was unstable as I left, and the HDD and 40 GB mysteriously vanished from virtual existence. Moral: Don’t take a picture of evilness and expect it to be tame. I lost all the party
photos too!! !

As amazing as the week was, I don’t think I’ve ever been more happy to be back at college (that is… until I found by homework and remembered the midterm tomorrow)—it truly feels like home now, and I don’t think I’ve been as energized or excited for school since the first week! Time to finish strong!

P.S. Can someone explain this to me?