Let me note, that there are only two things on my mind this week:
Sq! and ECE 210 Exam 3. Yep. So it’s like this and .

A Break in the Cycle
The Elder Scrolls IV: Oblivion

Yeah, so instead of playing Elder Scrolls IV: Oblivion, I’ve decided to write in my xanga. So addicted: I have three exams this coming week (ECE 210, ECE 290, and GE 101), and I’m not nearly ready for any of them. Man, but since getting this game Thursday, I’ve played about… 10 hours. Not much by gamer standards, but WAY too much for these times. It’s not even that *great* of a game; it’s like reading a book bout characters you don’t really care about. Ah, but my brother would be jealous–so as long as he doesn’t know, it’s coo~

But Oblivion, it has the most amazing visuals that I’ve EVER seen in a game:

A knight of some sort.

So things are kinda funky these days. Plans for the summer are near finalized: we get out of school sometime between 5/9-5/13 (I’ll find out soon); Study abroad in Beijing from 5/27 – 7/9, and a new addition, my first visit to Korea in 5 years from 7/9-7/21. So that’s pretty much half my summer decided already.

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[UPDATED]

It’s kind of scary, thinking that half of college is over already… don’t you think? Things are different from freshman year, when everything was new, and anything was worth trying. This is year two, and college is as much home as anywhere else; I’ve actually stopped trying to avoid calling this pad my “home”, and I suppose, when you spend 9 out of 12 months here, it IS home.

I hate having regrets. As high school neared its end, a very rare once in a while, I’d look back at those four years and wish that I could do it over again. With senior year began a sharp upturn, and in the end, it proved to be amazing enough to salvage and take make the entire experience one of the best times of my life… and so quickly, it was over. I vowed to make every year thereafter better than the last. I think we all did.

And now we’re here. Livin’ it up, University style, year two. And how is it? I’m sure everyone’s experience is vastly different. For some, they dove deep into what they’ve been doing, and found out that they actually like it (Mr. Godbole for one); others have begun to reach beyond what they thought they were (Jon somehow thinks he’s a doctor now– ), I for one finally stopped changing majors every semester…

Haha, wow, what an unorganized stream of thoughts. To me, it feels as if the year is just beginning–at an upturn, once again, things hopeful.

21 Quad Leaving Allen Hall

More on that later…

Time to eat my ramen!

KsQ Unity!

Okay, I really ought to be sleeping now, as I have to wake up in a few hours anyway. BUT, I have progress to report! I have just finished my P.O.S. story that was due two weeks ago (albiet with extension) that comes out to 14 single spaced pages. I have spent the past TWO weeks agonizing every day, as the prospect of writing this hung over my head, and now, FINALLY, it is finished!

I have thus resorted to celebrating, alone in my room, as certain Sq’s do not understand that Kqs tend to fluxuate between the rational and the spontaneous. Tis like the contrasts between Virgo and Gemini, which apparently rank as one of the most incompatible, due to their celestial “angles” being off by 90 degrees (four months out of 12 = 90/360, the angle for total destructive interference–though I always thought it was 180 degrees).

Alas, I have become more volitile, and whilst stability is what I long for, to combat this wacked up state of my life, I have resorted to the soothing bubbles for tonight. The bubbles are nice…

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It’s time to change, throw out the books and start again
Break all the rules, fall on your face, don’t be ashamed
You can’t waste more time, ’cause you’ve been gone for far too long

What people “envy”

I’m beginning to think that I’m doing a lotta womany things; like filling out random quizzes below. But I’ve been procrastinating so muc that I’ve been running out of ways to be unproductive.

 

People Envy Your Ingenuity

Xander’s ________ Life.
Part… what? Chapter ?

My mind is fried. I don’t think I’ve ever been so overwhelmed by life. It’s a terrible feeling; it feels like I’ve lost the ME in my life. If life is a war, I’m at the point where everything has degenerated
into a senseless melee; and then having been clubbed in the head, am
lying somewhere in the between consciousness and oblivion.

Does that make any kind of sense to anyone? This powerless, nearly-defeated, lost-in-mayhem feeling; why can’t I seem to get out of it? Is it just stress? Lots of stress?

Spring break didn’t help at all.

It’s so overwhelming that I can’t focus; I can’t concentrate. I can’t even keep a coherent thought in my mind for longer than it takes to think it. Worst of all (at least in Xanga), I can’t write a straight paragraph without degenerating into a senseless stream of consciousness.  Absolutely unacceptable, considering that I need to write a 8-20 page short story by Thrusday. Maybe it’s the effect of being lost right in the middle of college. And I’m bumbling blindly through this mess, and it is beginning to piss me off.

What is it???

Mleh. Too much stress… that’s all I can think of. Ay… well, hopefully I’m not losing my cognitive powers… if this is just stress (not to marginalize), at least there’s something I can do about it. Needless to say, this isn’t the best time to be evaluating my life, or making big decisions… I think I just need time to chill, which I haven’t had for WAY too long. In the mean time… I’ll survive where I can. School is a neverending demon, and like I said three months ago, it is our common enemy.

*Sigh…* I need rest…
**napping**

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Oh, in the mean time… apparently my face has something to say:

What Your Face Says