Open minds, free words

*Sigh… I love talking to people that listen, with minds open.


I think I’m finally regaining the faculty of thought again, but with a new awareness for actually LIVING life! I’ve come to terms with how much I’ve grown in the past decade, year, month.5, week, day, night…

When I think of times past and how I used to think and believe, I feel connected and disconnected at the same time. It’s the same me and I understand why I felt that way, yet I can’t ever imagine feeling the same way again. I’m realizing how much the past is a part of me, while at the same time realizing that the past is past… I am not the same person I was when I said goodbye to my Spectrum school friends who’d I’d never see again/felt the beauty of completion/second impression of an old acquaintence/ate lunch at central 4th hour/still had my car/felt doubts popping up and have trust and common sense pound them down–despite still feeling the connections to each mindset. It’s not just that I’m a selectively-metacognitive thinking while living hopeful optimist now–and I still remember each stage as I endured it.



I miss Tauri…

  • *sigh* I’d love to talk to someone with an open mind too…
  • dude…what happened to Tauri??
    and i know you love talking to don’t have to publicly announce it.!!(hehe. ;))
    and yes..tact…which of course is sarcasm!
    hmm…u couldn’t be further from the truth…big cities are always going to be exception. This is Hicksville! remember that..btw.. saw 2 koreans..and i kinda/sorta got the urge to talk 2 ’em..but i resisted.
    hehe i wanted to say añoñg to them..but u know wat happened last time i said it! Besides i realize it’s a stupid thing 2 go and do that!
    i’m such an idiot!
    later stud!
    ~Ray Jay .
  • p.s.
    glad you dropped by!
  • Its a name given to you by the crazy people of the government…they are trying to control you with your own internet alias…LOL…thanks for the props…
  • interesting … before about 12 i don’t remember my actions being particularly rational, more like reactions to stimuli. kinda weird considering how much i had read before that. oh well, im prbly just a very late social bloomer. it was about that time that i figured out how to look at things from multiple points of view, and put some perspective on things. then again maybe i still don’t have it, and ten years down the line i will look back and realize how trivial my problems were. but i still don’t.
    since about 13, i havent changed too much. given the same knowledge and circumstances, i can think of little i would have actually done differently. a lot i would have liked to change, but very little i actually would have …