Author: skyrien

Year 3 – Chapter 10 – The Future , coming up!

by skyrien

Xander’s College Life: Year 3

Chapter 10 – The Future , coming up!


Tis Boulder! Very nice place, and it clearly does not have CORNFIELDS!

Time for an update, and this time, from Boulder, Colorado! This place is great–so much so, that I feel like I’m vacationing here right now. It feels so weird being here; in many ways, this feels a lot like Naperville; suburb of a much larger city, it has a quaint small town feel. The hotel I’m staying at is the Hotel Boulderado, a very stylish “homely” hotel that’s about 98 years old. The coolest thing: the elevator is HAND OPERATED and has been there since the hotel was built. It’s this awesome little box that feels like it’s going to break, and half the time, misses the actual floor landing. It’s great! .


Fancy lobby!

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My “cute” little room on the fifth floor.

The people here are very diverse, not so much in ethnicity, but in lifestyles. In addition to the usual average happy suburban folk, I’ve seen several homeless people with ragged clothes and unruly hair, western type people with big hats, kids going around Pearl Street on Segways, street vendors selling sunglasses and funky hats… it’s VERY outdoorsy, with most of the shops and restaurants having at least part of their services in patios. There’re a LOT of punk kids on skateboards going around the town, and TONS of bikers (even the main roads have bike turn lanes), skiiers, hikers, etc… this is one town where you can’t just stay inside (like I am now… writing this entry… grr…). And after spending most of spring break indoors, this is a welcome change.

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Pearl Street Mall

People here don’t know where “U of I” is, unless you actually add, “Illinois”, and “Champaign”. Okay, so that’s not a surprise, but it does give some perspective to how small I’ve been thinking. After living so many years in Illinois, sometimes I forget that everything that I feel makes my life what it is, is it’s just a small part of a much larger world, even in the U.S., and that there are many *many* more people worth meeting than the forty thousand or so on campus (not to say that I don’t love all Illini folk ). I guess that’s why I’m so keen on getting out of the Midwest, at least for this summer; I feel a thirst inside for new places, new people, and new kinds of living, even if it’s just another state.

Another thing I’ve noticed about Colorado: the distances are HUGE! I mean, I thought Naperville was pretty spread apart with it’s long suburban streets, but here, just getting to Qualcomm from the hotel entailed driving for 15 minutes across an amazing vista of open road… which I am doing on my rental car (’04 Saturn Ion)! That’s right, I, of age 21, have a rental car!

The road between Qualcomm and Boulderado.

Xander’s Saturunis.

Boulder seems to be a great place to live. I’d love to be here for the summer, though, I’m not sure if it’s “city” enough for me.

Anyway. I’m gonna go enjoy what time I have left here, before I fly back to Champaign. (Yes, I am FLYING to Champaign!). Ciao!

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Proof that I was here.

Xander’s College Life: Year 3 Chapter 9

by skyrien

Xander’s College Life: Year 3
Chapter 9 – The art of overburdening

I have a peculiar habit at the beginning of every semester: after adding all the classes that I’d been planning to take (largely a mix of boring technical classes and fun technical classes; a mixed bag of 16-18 hours, but all technical), I then proceed to add on one or two more from one of my other curricula of interest. This semester, it happened to be computer graphics, which incidentally turned out to be my favorite class.

Of course, I initially intend to keep all 20-22 hours of classes, a way of staying ahead while still doing what I want to do; hasn’t happened yet. This semester felt different; the classes at least, seemed manageable.

Facebook has it laid out like this:

•    MATH 415 Advanced Topics In The Theory Of Groups (this should say Linear Algebra )
•    C S 418 Computer Graphics
•    ECE 410 Digital Signal Processing
•    ECE 329 Intro Electromagnetic Fields
•    C S 440 Introductory Artificial Intelligence
•    ECE 200 Seminar
•    STAT 400 Statistics and Probability I

Thursday evening, I was sitting in the food court of the union, oddly alert after having slept about 10 minutes the night before, gone through 2 interviews, having just finished 7 hours of classes, and now studying for an hour quiz for 410, after which I needed to meet with my HKN group to plan our Wii tournament, and thereafter spend 2 hours on STAT homework, 4 on MATH 415, and plan for a meeting with a fellow researcher all for Friday—when I saw the first familiar (non-classmate) face of the day. Dev came by after I hailed him, and proclaimed that he had “nothing to do”.

Absolutely nothing?

Yep, he had so little to do, that after the featherweight bounce he had strolled in with, he was gonna go bowling. This had little impact on me then, as I had some final catching up to do, but it came back to me many hours later.

I had debated with Jon a week before, about exactly *why* we were such workaholics — piling on more and more work because we think we can, and then busy feeling so guilty when a moment went by unproductively. That day, I argued that we did this because we were motivated, that while most people would do what they needed to do, and then go about being idle, we actually drove to further ourselves, to push forward with far more than the average load, and succeed. That, we declared, was the key to success, and the reason why instead of lounging around, we put ourselves through all this excess. Back then, it made perfect sense, and satisfied, I went about doing my 418 MP, feeling motivated again. Now, after returning from the Wii meeting I surveyed the 7+ hours of work I’d have to do just to catch up to the homework due that day; and then all that reasoning from before fell apart, and suddenly, I was left feeling a lack of purpose.

This all felt stupid. Before, I had prided myself by keeping a balanced lifestyle; mixing fun with productivity, pursuing hobbies, exploring personal interests, reading for pleasure (God, when was the last time I did that???), and really, giving myself enough time to catch up with the life I was living. Now, well, I still did some of the aforementioned, but overall, I was working non-stop. I don’t even remember the last time that I had “free-time”; there was always something due on the horizon (if not the next day), and it’s kind of hard enjoying yourself when you’re feeling guilty that you should be doing something else.

In any case… this all seems kind of ridiculous, a little excessive, and I need to rethink my priorities. I *do* have a LOT of interests beyond the technical work that I’m doing, and I’m beginning to feel their absence. So, for the rest of the semester; while I’m on the job hunt for summer.

Well, that’s all for now–and since I said I’d post up pictures of the snow…

<UPDATE>

Well, I’ve finally dropped a class; no more MATH 415!

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People evade the skidding bus… you can’t really see it, but there’s a blizzard of snow blowing around.


Cars that won’t be going anywhere for a while…


Over there is the library!