Year 3 – Chapter 4 – Finding Closure

There’s something that’s been bothering me lately, something that came to me in an epiphany while driving home from break. I’ve realized that there is a certain lack of closure in quite a few aspects of my life. And if not closure, definition. I guess it’s the inevitability of actually living—you can’t finish every chapter you start, and as you go along, you write in loose ends and sometimes conveniently forget to write them in. It makes for great story writing, always giving yourself possibilities to expand, but in life, it’s just serves to complicate things. I’m sure [name removed] will have something to say about not being able to escape your past, and of course, you can’t really, but you can try to make it something you can live with, and that’s what I’m going to have to do. As Joe Lewis has said in my Facebook, “You only live once, but if you do it right, once is enough.”

Closure in my past is essential to truly moving forward, and I think I need to close some past pages, and finish writing some more in the present. I don’t presume to be able to live perfectly, but I do have this great need to to be at peace with the way things are, and these “loose ends” create ever-present tensions that are never fully addressed. Often, I’m so used to it that I forget, until something happens—something causes it to be brought up again, and then I realize how much it has been an unacknowledged weight on my chest. Other times, it’s on my mind so much that it literally dominates my thought, hindering anything else I need to be doing. Bad conflicts can result from these, and I think it’s time to address the important ones sincerely. Still, I’ve come to realize recently that some Pandora’s boxes are better left untouched… and peace better found between God and I.

TO BE UPDATED SOON: Rohit’s Birthday Events!


And, since I got bored, I did this test again:

Advanced Global Personality Test Results
Extraversion
  • gosh, you do too many online surveys…you don’t need them to tell you what you are do you? by the way this song is supercool, what is it? and stevie wonder…i dont even know if i’ve heard any of his songs before. at least not consciously I suppose. all i think of is wonderbread 😛
  • so maybe i am bragging…

    but english is so hard in high school…! =P

    hehe… but yehhh, u right. imma make priv. now. XD