December

I’m sitting in my room, listening to an awesomely beautiful song . It’s December now. It’s cold and dark out… and things seem gray again. Two years ago , gray was what my world was, knowing that even as I was stuck in my bubble, life were out there–whatever “life” was. Two years later here I am, after taking a short trip through both extremes, back in gray. It’s a different shade of gray though… or maybe it’s just a different me.

I AM a different me now… but still the same.

I’ve come to accept that we can’t always keep things close, no matter how hard you may try; that when it’s time to move on, you do inevitably move on. I’d like to live a proactive life, but I’ve learned to value “going with the flow”. I also believe, however, with people anyway, and perhaps all of life, the things that stick around, without having to tie them down to KEEP them around are the ones you’ll be close to as you’re meant to be. And that’s a nice comfort.

Oh but not all so bittersweet… I’ve learned another thing over the two years: that your life is what you make of it. And that MAKING isn’t always easy, but it’s always, ALWAYS worth the effort. Besides, you learn life’s lessons along the way, through the victories, and sometimes more, especially in our young age, the defeats. Anyway, that is all.

I just took a killer orgo exam. And a TAM exam. Life blows, but I love it anyway. Here’s a shoutout to my dear sQ! Stay strong! Destiny awaits! TAKE IT!

LoL. Okay, I’m going to bed.

~*~

I didn’t really explicate on these lyrics when I posted them; was occupied trying NOT to die from orgo and TAM.

strange how certain the journey
time unfolds the petals for our eyes to see
strange how this journey’s hurting
in ways we accept as part of fate’s decree

so we just hold on fast
acknowledge the past
as lessons exquisitely crafted
painstakingly drafted
to carve us as instruments
that play the music of life
– Eric’s Song, Vienna Teng

~*~

Journalist? wtf?

Extroverted ( E ) 70% Introverted (I) 30%
Intuitive ( N ) 65.79% Sensing (S) 34.21%
Feeling ( F ) 55.26% Thinking (T) 44.74%
Perceiving ( P ) 58.14% Judging (J) 41.86%

ENFP –  “Journalist”. Uncanny sense of the motivations of others. Life is an exciting drama. 8.1% of total population.
  • iiiinteresting
  • hmmmm
  • peanut butta jeeelllyyyy! peanutbuttajelly! peanutbuttajelly!
  • beautiful.
  • GoD! fag.

    ~s143

  • who are u?
  • i love vienna teng!!

  • ……………………interesting.

    Very.

  • God I freaking comment on like every post. It’s stalkerish. I’m your stalker!

    FYI, “That is all” is so totally my blogging expression. Thief.

    I am stalking a thief!

    And it is 4 in the morning. And I am to write my damned paper.

    Oky bye now.

    Lovebug!

  • who’m I?
    ask Joo.
    ~s143
  • boy do i feel stupid.
    ~s143
  • oooooh

    i like ur song…..

    it makes me feel light….

    and nonsuicidal