The ECE life?

Okay~! My first exam has passed with an A+, and it would seem that my academic future is secure for the time being. But this will likely be the only lull in the barrage until the end of the week. Why do things always happen to me in weeks?

I had an epiphany in ECE lab today: I absolutely, horridly detest what I see as the likely future of electrical engineering. Today. As we poked around at BJT and GSD transistors (in case you didn’t know, the former is current-controlled, can function as a switch *and* an amplifier, while the latter can only function as a switch but is VOLTAGE-controlled, meaning that less current is wasted and the system can be reduced–this also reduces heat emissions!) and toyed with a voltage regulating circuit, which we’ll later implement into our line-tracing car, I had a very distinct feeling which I will title the ‘what the hell am I doing?’ emotion. It’s not a matter of ability (which may just be my excuse), after today’s exam, i have no doubt that I *can* do this, but really, when I no longer want to, what’s the point?

Sometimes I wish my parents were the type that said “son, YOU are doing _____” like a few people I know. There’re a lot of things that I wish they had applied that attitude to, then who knows? Maybe I’d thank them later for it. I had the distinct feeling during the first week that ECE was one of those things that if you could do well, it would pay off. I have no doubt that it can pay off, money is one of the reasons why many people were pulled into the subject in the first place. But still, as I sat there with 12 different devices, which I would probably enjoy playing with on my own time, I had an almost absolutely certain sureness that it wasn’t where I wanted to be in the production ladder.

Not to disrespect any would be electrical engineers, but I found the line of work rather tedious, and too low level for me (any *real* engineers know that saying such is not an insult ). I’m all about abstractions, and manipulating higher order systems–like playing with magic, the feeling of empowerment derived from the unknown complexities, like standing on the deck of a titanic ship, aware of the turning of the engine, the cannon fire of pistons, combustion of hydrocarbons, and donation of electrons–all working to drive thousands of tons of steel and souls. All of it is facinating, and perhaps even beautiful, but none of that, to me, compares with the magnificence of being captain, thunderous waves breaking againts the incredible machine… the sense of freedom and power. I find EE’s rules a little bit too restricting, which makes it easier to grasp, but harder to enjoy. There are those that enjoy the highway, and those that like city streets, and the infinite possibilites of them.

Hmm… or maybe its just the fact that I don’t give a damn about how transistors work, as long as I can use then to do what I want to do. Haha… okay, I’m done with this, all I wanted to say was… ECE exam = success. ECE Lab: cool stuff, boring work.

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I think I’ve grown out of my phase of expecting the least as to never be disappointed. I’ve since realized the power of desire, and the human will to achieve. But this year is different.

  • random proping! nice b/g! and hope u do good on ur exams…^_^
  • sweat pea body wash?! o.O have you been to bath and body works lately?
  • Good luck! Take charge of your academic future!
  • ? Really? since when? 😛
  • study hard and ur books by the balls!
  • g’luck on ur exam todai.. or was it yesterday^_^!!… do u still txtmsg like crazy!!?? haha…
  • good boy

    -birdy

  • computer engineering is just high level abstractions. wait til you get to the logic stuff. you’ll love 290, and hate 210
  • K –

    Trust me, Alex, once your parents start forcing engineering down your throat despite your avid hatred for all things Newton and physics related, you’ll be yearning for parents that let you actually *gasp* pick a major you don’t feel repugnance for.  Though…it is always easier on the conscience to blame other people for the things that go wrong in your life, so I guess this does grant me a whole lot of whining, yeah? =D Don’t worry, I won’t start…

    I’m glad, however, that you’ve crawled out of your idealistic shell a little bit.  Because if anything, people are disappointing and flawed and imperfect and that is why we can conclude that life’s a bitch and then you die.

    Kidding.  Sort of.

    – S

    And remember: electricity is evil.

  • hey ya..
    i still can’t get over how unseemingly smart you are. All that talent hidden underneath volatile behaviour. You were a lunatic…still are; having impulsive desires and acutally  acting on ’em..Mmm…and to think such genius lies behind all that. One could easily be fooled! oOi…well i know whatever you choose you will gaurenteedly be succesfull..unlike people like us..who have to work for it. but now i know how all the ppl. in my chem. class feel when they see me work! yaay! haha!
    holla
    ~S143
    p.s. if you get it..send something back w/ only Rahul on the cover and your return address so the guy knows who its to. latez,

  • hey btw..i really wanna talk to jase. its been too long and it feels like i’m missing some part of my life. a dear old friend. well it is! haha. it’s constantly nagging me that i’m missing something essential. think u can do n e thing bout that? oOo…mm..hook me up w/ his #. i’ll find a way to call him.
    latez
    ~s143

  • aww no ece love? thats too bad…hehehe. actually, i hated ece 110 lab too…it doesn’t get interesting until you actually start programming the car, and even then, there are only 2 or so possible designs…oh well…