15-Aug-2004

[This entry is dedicated to those who have gone before us.]

I think for the first time ever… I’m beginning to feel distant from what we once were. As if I’ve suddenly found another dimension to float off into, while those left behind keep running, where we used to go.

Drifting. That’s what it feels like. Being pulled in the slipstream of a future yet to be lived. But I feel it coming ever so closer.

The first of my close friends left today. It was a goodbye of the deepest kind, not holding on, not letting go, not doing anything that would hinder either of us from becoming the best we can be. I shed no tears–for the moment was neither sad, nor happy; just smiles of parting, knowing that no distance from the Heart, nor ANYTHING else , will hinder us from being EVERYTHING that we can be. And how can one be sad?! when we know that a dear friend is out there being the best he can be? (and to confirm this, I have just received a call from The One who has been sent ahead) Overshadowing every other emotion, is one that I can describe only as sheer jubilation, with a tinge of pride. Like, damn—I miss ‘em so much, but nothing can take away from this joy.

This is the first step in accepting the present, next we rule the future.

Future!!!, our forerunner has gone, and has brought news of cheer and victory that lies ahead. And we who follow shall embrace it, with nothing to stop us. And what else is there… there is hope. An infinite hope that cannot die.

I can’t wait for college.

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Tina Arena – The Flame ( Sydney Olympics 2000)

Is this the hope of the world in my hands
I’ll take this moment, to be all that I can
Look to you to see the future
Stronger and free

Today we will show who we are
We are the earth
And we’re together again
My friends, will you show us the way
We travel on, guided by the flame

The fire within makes you reach out to the goal
You redefine the best, by stretching the soul
A world in need of inspiration
And looks to you and me

Today we will show who we are
We are the earth
And we’re together again
My friends, will you show us the way
We travel on, guided by the flame

Since ancient times we’ve come together
In the light of the flame
To stand for all the world to see
People reaching out to greatness
And all we can be

Today we will show who we are
We are the earth
Together again
Today you will show who you are
The best on earth, and you bring the world together again
My friends, you have shown us the way
Look to your heart
You will find the flame

Amazing song–they should have played this at our graduation.

  • the future? … .:shudder:.

    l.li

  • Nice song. Yes…the future. So uncertain, so unpredictable, yet so exciting. Good luck!
  • woa dang… ur going to college soon eh…
    so fast
    ne ways nice profile pic
    l8ter
  • I still cant grasp the concept that youll all be gone in less than two weeks.  It seems so unreal.  You’ll all leave me to stay here in Naperville while you go on and have amazing new adventures with your new friends in a new life..
  • Alexxx. Hi. I wanted to see you this summer but it didn’t quite happen. Oh well, good luck in college!
  • wow…i wish that i could be as brave as you are in accepting change.  congratulations on your open mind.