Reflections from 2000

Wow, I was just reading some of my old journal entries… like from junior high old, when I was 14, 15 years old. Reading it, I can tell that my core ideas haven’t changed… but I’ve added a lot of substance to who I am as a person.

Here’s one entry–I’ll see if I can post up the rest someday.

ENTRY 006 Friday, April 14 th , 2000 11:59 AM

I have realized that all what I am trying to accomplish, I can’t do it alone. I need someone who understands me, who wants to understand me… 

I have also realized that (I have known for long) that I’m sensitive to others’ thoughts. Even a little remark will make me think a lot of it. At least, I am an expert in hiding my expressions. But to counter that, I also have a lot of self-confidence. I believe in myself (more than anyone) that I could do whatever I needed to do. That’s what kept me going for so long. Failure after failure, my self-confidence gave me the power to renew myself and be new and ready each time. But it seems to be failing; being over-used. I’m not sure if I can take this pressure alone. I need help. I prayed for help. I hope there will be an answer. END OF LOG 006

My birthday entries are cool–along with letters to future myself. Okay, I told CC that I was gonna sleep at 10… hmm… I think it’s a little past ten… ay.. ok, sleepy time!

  • omg… o.m.g!  it’s joe!  and he has a xanga!  O_O  dag…  just wondering.. is that you in that profile pic?  (cuz it reallie looks like Inha–sorry if i spelled it wrong)  neways, i’ll cya later!!  bye bye  ^^//
  • hehehehehe say hi to ur bros for me^^ they’re soo adorable!
  • MUAHAHAHA another convert to the xanga cult…the high priest will be pleased…muahaha
  • oooh… int’restin’….. hmmm…

    ……okee – sleep! lol ~nitey nite Xander~